A Friday morning picnic

So i went for a jog then decided to take the poor turtles with me.. my fav book too! 06,30 AM till 09,00

was fab <3

Yes .. the turtles had fun too ^_^

One of the best books i have ever read <3 it cracks me up like crazy read it tones of times <3

Pray for me, she said.

When u start to hold ur tears in a bottle.. 
do u tend to wish away ur prayers? 
i sing them in my head on and on .. 
they say u shudnt beg out of despair.. 
u shud beg out of love for the only and one.. 
and i do love u.. 
i havn't been close to u lately .. 
but i do love u.. and it hurts me to be away.. 


i used to press ppl away.. tangle them up in my own world.
i had so much fun and i laughed the pain away.. 




she passes by me in my dreams.. 
she'd ask me to send my kisses in a box.. 
she says im suppressed ,, and i cant make anything mine.. 
she ends my endless dreams like always.. 
she would dance the numbness away.. she'd dance the stars and giggle out loud.. 
i wake up after the breathless seconds i took .. i wonder why wont i ever meet her in here.. 
why wont i be there dancing away the moon.. all me all me .. not her.. then i wud ask her to pray for me .. or atleast id say.

Late Night Alumni - Rainy days

Mama said

حبنا للآخرين يجب ألا يكون مشروطا بسلوكهم، نحبهم لحبنا لمن يحبهم "mom said"

"our love to others shudnt be conditional, we love them out of our love to the ones who love them. "

very deep! but i kinda disagree

ALL ABOUT EM WORDS..... "all about them words.."

it has occurred to me that i have limited words on my mind. they keep on flashing... u see my brain is like a high way.. it got two wide way highway.. it has a bright moon.. and see through stars.. 

and when i come to wander.. all what i see or more of get fascinated by .. are the flashy strong lid billboards.. 

thought of sharing the words highlighted with you.. i mean.. it is possible.. very very .. to have some one which shares the same words.. maybe... not.

im serious now.. i have these words constantly .. i even dream about them... 

Seconds late dignity urge fail fall alone wish him mom help could 


despair miss family dream weight money sisterhood Love 


identity support love safety-net TRUST breathe LEAVE..

Just learning the freedom of floating on..

U know how they say that elephants are never aware of the idea of breaking the leash they r under cause when they were little trainers used to tie their lil bodies in those huge ropes and they grew up tide and tangled w the same ropes but they always thought of how they are much bigger and they can never break free?

Now .. FOCUS "i know u read the earlier paragraph like three times to grasp the idea.. and u probably wondering i that meant any thing.. in this case i advice u to go back and read AGAIN"

What im saying here is... we all are much worse than elephants. We keep on hanging on our sorrows, difficulties and the daily crap. We fall weak.. we cry then we vent and thennnnnn we have icecream get a sugar boost and tadaaaa.. we fake happiness. 

im NOT saying that no one is happy.... but recently every one has A PROBLEM. 

mine is that im mentally screwed by the access trust i gave ppl.. 

my friend is screwed cause she wants divorce.. the other is not happy cause her hubby isn't watching football games.. the third is desperately sad cause they are only going to switzerland for the summer and they usually go to france and uk and switzerland.. "enough with the caps locks! i shall pay em respect when ever they pay my humanity respect!!"

Do u get what i mean???? every one is stuck in their own misery.. which some ppl tend to call drama.. "which is sooo unfair to drama!! drama is a form of ART and what we do is waaaaaaaaaaaaay far from art..."

WE ARE ALL BABY ELEPHANTS! WE WERE TRAINED TO BE AWARE OF THE LEASH.. NO MATTER WHAT U SAY... WE ALL FEAR WITH DEALING WITH WHAT EVER CRAP WE GOT JUST BECAUSE WE ARENT READY FOR A CRAP FREE LIFE.. YES .. we are sooo miserable .. that we dont want out pain to go away .. just because we dont know what will happen after....

we dont have the freedom to imagine freely.. we dont have the freedom to expect. we all are suppressed by all the fears we have.  

floating away by ~hannzo

Shh just close the door i want to wash my feet.

This is just another story. 

Like an hour ago i needed to wash my feet, i had a very very strong urge to wash em.. 

any way.. the place im in has only one bathroom and i couldnt stand (lods of issues.. cant stand still .. and erh,,, long story). So the urge kept on burning me .. and pushing me;.. out of no where .. i'd head to the pantry and call my sweet fatima.. i asked her to come and help me .. 

we headed to the pantry i said nothing.. 

fatima was worried.. she had her serious face on.. 

i was like fatima help me raising my foot.. im afraid i'd fall... 

AND without any questions asked... fatima being an amazing friend helped me out. 

she didnt ask me why am i using the sink of the pantry to wash (my clean) feet.. she didnt give me any looks.. she helped me and then stood by the door so nobody would see me.. 

i know it might seem lame and shollow to u. but this is out to Fatima.. i lobe u! u did what a best friend would do.. i really lobe u <3